i don't understand how you could just turn your back on all you said on all the things you believed in and said, you just come right round and pretend like it's all good and nothing's wrong when in fact it's all just so obvious that it's needless to tell you anything

this week's been crappy and i hate to say that i''m so sick of having to deal with superficialities and everything else. i'm not complaining because everyone else's going through a tough time but i just feel that i really need a break from everything that's been bugging me ( the worries ). school's been fine i've got great helpful friends to help me along the way and support from my parents but it's this sense of disappointment i feel in myself when i forsee my grades coming out and not meeting my targets. i'm not asking for much, just 14 points i'm willing to work as hard as it takes me to get that but does hard work really pay off? i really wonder how some people do it and can be so good at everything ( looks, brains, personality ) whilst i've got nothing.

i hate this week i hate your insensitivity and i hate today, especially.

felt like there ought to be sometime for me to vent it all out i'm so tired and so lacking any more motivation as much as i know i've got to give it my all and keep pushing, i feel as if i've reached my limit already. everyone has struggles to be dealt with and having to deal with problems isn't and has never been something i'm good at .... i'm tired goodnight